raya!

as promised, ni la fathma.... fathma yg ayu berjubah biru tu...cantek je kn... tp raya haritu i xsempat nk spend time ngn dia sbb i pegi solat raya... 1st time in my life solat raya uolls...hihihi... kelam kabut jugak haritu as the imam didnt teach how to perform the solat raya to the makmum... haha xpe la next year insyaAllah pegi lg... yelah kau bayangkan lah umur dh 22 baru nk terhegeh-hegeh pegi solat raya kn...

ok lah sempena raya ni i nk ucapkan selamat hari raya aidilfitri kepada semua...maaf zahir batin atas segala salah dan silap...juga minta dihalalkan segala makan dan minum serta ilmu yg diberikan ye... 

:)

fathma

semalam petang b4 waktu berbuka ayah went to makngah's house to send some bubur pulut hitam. and i purposely came along since i have not been there jumpe makngah quite sometime and really wanted to meet fathma budak cantek dan comel tu.  fathma is makngah's grand daughter and now dh 4 years old. 

hampir x kenal mula2 masuk rumah makngah semalam sebab fathma dh potong rambut pendek. really miss her! i don't have her latest picture with short hair. perhaps this raya i will snap some and show how cute she is. ok. bye.

parents.

bismillah,
assalamualaikum.

tonight is the night when a holy month gets started. and i am now sitting in front of my lappy with the tv switched on for me to glance to when the drama is on the air, and to ignore when it comes to advertisements. realizing how much Allah loves us, for letting us to stay alive until now, to repent and to never stop in seeking for His forgiveness and blessings. tonight, this beautiful and tranquil night, i feel like to write about parents' love.

yes, they always keep worrying when we are away and this sometimes may make us feel uncomfortable for being forbidden to go out, hanging out. but we have to be awake that none will be worried about us, none will love us more than our parents do. we do have relatives, we do have friends, lecturers etc. but we will never find any love greater than our own parents'. perhaps humans will realize this fact when parents are taken away.

i always hope and always want to make my parents proud of me, from i was a small kid until the day i close my eyes, ending this life. being the one whom they find an apple of their eyes, and someday when people were talking good about me, my parents can raise one side of their eyebrows while saying, "that's my daughter!". i always want to die before them as i can't imagine how my life would be without them. and for those who like to take advantages of my parents, no matter who you are, what relation we do have, i just wanna let you know that i really hate you and will never like you, even though i pretend to be good to you just only for the sake of my parents.

however, as we have had already knew, life is just like a wheel, having its very own ups and downs. my life is too. i have ever experienced how it feels when we are at the top, and how it feels when we are at the bottom. i have to believe them as my qada' and qadar. but what i really hope is, i would never give up to stand again as this life is a journey, a battle that would never stop.

i want!

nak balik rumah

mama's worry

apsal la mama keeps worrying about her daughter for not having a boyfriend...

relax la mama sayang...

akak bukan nk kawin next year pn...

kalau ade boyfriend, xboleh tunggu lama2 dh utk kawin nnt...

kn?

hihihi

;p

i dont plan to get married within these 2 years time

thus i find that there's no point for me to have a boyfriend for now

and i believe, jodoh tetap jodoh

insyaAllah

semoga dikurniakan yg terbaik utk diri ini

yes!

islam sangat mengangkat martabat wanita

yes, that is something undeniable

kenapa Allah suruh tutup aurat

kenapa Allah suruh jaga ikhtilat

sampai lah bila wanita berkahwin

kenapa Allah suruh taat pada suami

semua yang Allah suruh tu ada sebabnya

ada kebaikannya

ahahAA

that is sooo funny when a girl suddenly can cry for an unreasonable reason

n become so emotional when having her mensus.

same thing goes when she is having he pms (read : premenstrual syndrome).

kadang rasa cm ntah pape je when i can cry but still dont understand why i should cry.

memalukan pn ade jugak.

ah perempuan.

sometimes we dont even understand ourselves.

what a bizarre 

lappy was sick

subhanallah... mmg hidup ni Allah selitkan ujian, dan pada masa yg sama Allah xpernah lupa utk selitkan sekali nikmatNya utk kita...dalam ujian Allah akan tunjukkan jalan, kn... last week my lappy was infected from virus jahat n unable to start except in the safe mode... i think the virus was from a file of e-book i tried to download from internet... that was my first-time-ever la jadi cmtu n i was so panicked because some said that the hard disk is damaged oredy n that would cost about rm300 ya know! ya ampun dh macam repair kete dh kalau rm300 tu hoi. tp alhamdulillah ade org yg tahu how to fix the problem n tak nk 1sen pn as the charge.... i wanted to give some amount of money as the upah but he refused to take even 1cent. see, how Allah sends His help to me... alhamdulillah n thank you Allah. i always hope that Allah will help me in every trial i'm facing, n bless me in whatever i'm doing... also to help everyone who has helped me as the reward of their kindness...

sponsor?

hajat di hati nk sambung lah master...

tp tu pn kalau la ade sponsorship uhuhu....

swimming?

smlm siang i g library ngn mija, fisha n miza utk study further stat... tp mija wat fyp dia... xpe let her focus on her fyp since the due date is coming nearer... for the night, i plan nk g swimming kt swimming pool um tu with dena n aten... so i n dena pn naikla bas sampai api (akademi pengajian islam)... aten would b reaching by her vroom vroom (moto)... pastu we have to jalan kaki la skit sampai swimming pool which is located opposite 11th....ya know, semalam swimming pool tutup! dush dush! sabau je lah... dh la that was my first time nk brenang kt um ni... kecewa ya ampunnnn... then kitorg makan2 je kt 11th tu, n perform the maghrib prayers kt surau tu since the bus next schedule would be at 8.30 p.m... after that, me n dena waited for the bus again at api... sementara tu, borak n boraklah ngn dena a.k.a the counselor... eheeee ;)... dena cakap, mcm mana sifat kite, mcm tu lah pasangan kite nnt... eheheh... so touched lah dgn dena punye saying tu... n that makes me wonder how i am n how  my spouse-to-be is... if i have never dated any man before, has my spouse-to-be dated any woman? but i xkisah sgt pn if he has dated any woman before me ASALKAN he is able to be loyal to me n never look back towards his past... mmg... mmg sunyi giler la xde partner... just feel like i'm a boring girl whom has not known how beautiful the love is... luckily i have my friends (roommates, ism members) n my usrahmates... to seduce a man so that i can have a partner even tho that is temporary? n over-enjoying a relationship even tho it is not halal? hell no!!! to fall in love n to date are something possible but not for a long period before a marriage....i try hard to be a good muslimah... even tho i know that i'm not one... mungkin jodoh belum sampai lg... i believe, Allah's timing is perfect... will never be late, n will never be early as He knows the best for His servants... n i will continuously pray that the one who is created for me will come at the best time... then i reached my college at 9 p.m... yeah people come n go.... i hope my um friends n i will stick! n won't leave each other even tho we would be apart when we grow older... they are the ones who understand my happiness n my sadness... they are the ones who support me when i am down... may this friendship last forever, friends!



mlm ni nk gi wedding kak farah...she is my usrahmate...she is an engineer, ya know!... we are quite close even tho we have known each other belum sampai setahun pn i rasa... but dia dh bawak i jalan2 sampai pegi hospital jumpa family her friend pn skali... sisterhood unites us!...hehe...n she is the one yg nasihatkn i supaya jgn cari boyfriend...haha so funny lor kak farah... n she told that dia n her fiancee pn jarang jumpa as she is the one yg mintak kt her fiancee supaya diorg buat hal masing2 sblm kawin...haha mmg bagus btul la kak farah niiii....i hope your wedding tonight will go well n may Allah bless ur marriage until jannah, kakak! love ya! ;)

indah tp jauh

syurga itu indah

kite je yg menjauhinya....

:'(

mengundi

selamat mengundi semua

i have not registered to vote for this upcoming general election

as i am still surfing which party is true

and deserve to govern malaysia

may Allah help us all

choose!

the gift or The Giver???!

only-child

staying at home with parents as if u r the only child of them

haha

mengada kemain cuti kali ni

i love u mama n ayah....

:)

p/s : sedang menunggu my lappy keluar hospital kerana sakit keyboard yg dialaminya...

please get well soon

surat cinta

Allah

surat cinta Kau memang indah

rencanaNya

Allah memberikan yang terbaik 

tidak kira dalam bentuk kedukaan atau kesukaan, 

meskipun kadangkala tidak serasi dengan keinginan,

 tetapi percayalah Allah mempunyai perancangan 

yg jauh lebih indah.

lets....

al-anbiya' :89  

al-qasas : 24 

al-yusuf :4 

al-yunus :81 

redha

redha lah

semoga Allah berikan yg terbaik

dalam kehidupan ini

aamiin

elemen logam

i elemen logam u

agak keras hati sikit

ade betulnye kot

mmg kalau i tak suke something,

i takkan buat

haha

tp, kdg2 i have to accept others' ideas 

to be more effective

yup2

kalau perkara yg baik2

i will accept

i pn mestilah nak jd more effective kn

to achieve the degree of flexibility

kn2

teheee~

YOUR plan

Allah

perancangan Kau adalah yang terbaik buat hambaMu

tenangkan hatiku

beri aku kekuatan

:'(

Allah

aku amat berharap agar Kau sudi menghadiahkan yang terbaik buatku

terbaik buatku di dunia juga di akhirat

ampunkan aku atas segala dosaku

permudahkan segala urusanku

dan luaskan rezekiMu untukku....

tenkiu n tenkiu

terima kasih Allah

sebab kurniakan insan2 yg baik sekeliling saya

that is really a blessing

:)

exam mode

jodoh itu rahsia Allah

jaga diri baik2

semoga Allah pertemukan dengan yg baik

jaga hak suami yg telah dituliskan Allah utk kamu

bersabar itu lebih baik

n tidak terburu-buru

ingat janji Allah dalam surah annur

"perempuan yg baik utk lelaki yg baik"

xrugi jaga diri

pemimpin

tatkala sampai masa yang ditentukanNya, 

dia yang kau tunggu dalam doa akan tiba

bukan sebagai kekasih sementara, 

tetapi kekasih abadi yang akan memimpinmu ke syurga

egoist

being egoist does not help anything

believe me

it may hurt other people on the other side

life is so short to be proud of yourself
without thinking of people's feeling

come on

we have already grown up

think wisely before you talk and act

2013!

happy new year!

may we have a much better year ahead....

semoga Allah meluaskan rezekiNya untuk kita semua....

aamiin...

2013 ni masuk 22 tahun insyaAllah...

eheeee....

^^